The 23-Year-Old Me

During my childhood, my birthday is my most awaited event of the year aside from the new year's eve. Of course I still do feel the excitement during my annual birthdays, it's just that the occasion seems to remind me of a few frustrations, pending goals, failures, and bad decisions. When I was a child, I can't wait to grow older and conquer the world. When I was a teenager, I can't wait to establish a career and earn a hefty amount of moolah. It turns out that in my twenties (yes, 20 and +), all those dreams will come to reality (except the moolah one, haha). The kind of reality with all the mega-stress and ultra-pressure. The social ladder is high, people are watching & criticizing, your enemies seems unforgiving, love is confusing, loved-ones seems distant sometimes, the weather is bad, men are straightforward but blunt, temperature is rising, ice are melting, physics is not working, blah, blah, blah, which all boils down to an acute headache at the middle of your crammed workday. It turns out that before you can conquer the world, you have a lot of battle to win over yourself first, to conquer your enemies you have to be cold but kind, to conquer love you have to be patient and swallow a lot of pride, and lastly you need a strong foundation for you to hold on to or else everything will eventually fall apart. Okay, i'm 23 and as far as life and age is concern I consider myself lucky for me to live a normal life. Yes, crisis included! The end of the world was postponed but that does not mean I have to postpone on my goals and formulate another excuse. The world has a lot of trap, when you think that you have already conquered one, oh well, wait until you find yourself in another craze maze not knowing if you are already inside or nearing the exit line. Life can drain all your energies and sometimes "balance" is just another word in the dictionary. If I can only avail an unlimited dose of determination at the drugstore counter, I might replace my daily Clusivol Vitamins with it just to balance everything. Hahaha!

This year, I wanted a lot of changes. I promised myself to work harder, push further, love deeper and eat healthier. I won't take any cr*ap from haters seriously and simply not give a d*mn on what people expects me to be. This is the end of a former road, it's time for me to build my own path and write a new chapter on my book with the number 23 on it's title :)